Excerpts from a sweet memory

I wrote down this post last night, so most of the time references would be shifted by a day ;). Anyways, 2morow is the 14th of Feb, Valentine's Day. A day of love, westernized maybe, but still a special day for guys like us. Let the moral police go to hell, do what you wanna do but within the civilized limits. So starting of with my post ::

2morow night would be the 3rd anniversary. Can't believe I had so much balls to give a love-letter to a girl. A spur of the moment decision and off I was, with Criti, to Archies @ Overbridge to buy a card. Chose one that looked sweet yet simple. Hope "She" still has it with her. Was awake till 2 in the morning, re-writing letters, re-phrasing my words, making up poems and what not. Think I wrote my letter at least thrice b4 the final copy was ready.

Next day, was on hyper-drive. Came to college, late as usual, with only thing in mind. To propose to mi lady. Still remember the shivering and those knocking knees. Right in the classroom where I sat for 3 semesters, I opened up my heart. Another thing that binds my memory to GEC, Room no. 305. That room helped open my heart twice, once 3yrs back two days from now, and next on 26th of June last yr. I left my B.Tech in that class, after almost 3 yrs of fun with my old batch, joined back to B.Tech with my new batch in that same class, made new friends there and finally bade farewell to college from that very same room.

Coming back to Feb'07, I walked up and called her out from her gang. Gave her the card and my letter. Nothing filmy, just simple exchange of thoughts. Told her about my feelings for her, from the 1st day of college when I first saw her big eyes, her specs and those jasmine flowers on her hair. I did have doubts whether I could convey all that in whatever Malayalam I knew. Somehow, by God's grace I managed. She replied stating facts that she wasn't the best option for me then. All that she said on that day stills rings loud and clear in my ears. Even now, it hurts to think that I let go of such a sweet girl and completely messed it up. Not that I blame her for what she said, but myself for being so naive and laid-back when it comes to matters like these. I don't win arguments, not now and certainly not back then.

Looking back, I have learn't a thing or two for that experience. One, love at first sight isn't a myth. Two, it's great to have a broken heart, for you can learn to start anew. Three, it showed that unless you give it your all, you won't get what you yearn for. But then, I wouldn't have messed up, my already messed up, life so much if I hadn't "Niked".
Anyways, memories will remain and looking back to days after that, I gained so much in life that it could be termed as a blessing in disguise. See where I stand nwo, a nice job, an incomplete degree and ready-to-fall-in-love heart. In short, seems like "Jo hota hai, acche ke liye hi hota hai"(No pun intended).

Are we truly the Republic of India ??

Bored with nothing else to do. Mafia Wars is down for maintainence. Got up late after a long late-night surfing session. There goes the 60th Republic Day of India. Was going thru NDTV's editorials when something related to our Constitution came up. One of the articles was about the events thru which our Constitution was framed. The link to the article is Constitution: The Real Story. Felt gr8 to read that those who framed this gr8 book of rules were far better human beings than most of us today. They looked at everything ranging reservation to judiciary with a different perspective. They questioned their authority in framing those tenets of republic india. Looking at those high ideals which they upheld while framing the Constitution makes me wonder whether we would ever see politicians as good as them. Given the current state of India's beaurocracy, the slogan "Sau mein ninyanve beyimaan, phir bhi mera Bharat mahan" seems so apt for the Indian psyche.



Don't know why I wanna blog this even though I myself am a part of this systematically corrupted beaurocracy. All changes take place from within and with a hope that from today, the 60th Republic Day of our great nation, I would try to be a better Indian, a better person and, most importantly, a better human being. This post seems to be poised to make me more confused about my sense of patriotism. Which would be better, we, not me, being an Indian who stands up and salutes the National Flag on "THESE" days and then forgets about it, or we being the Indian who respect the Flag, the Nation and most importantly, our fellow Indian brothers and sisters ? Rather than the pretence that we love India, let us come forward and show that we do really care about our Motherland. So next time, you hear our National Song or Anthem being played, please do stand up in respect. This is just a test of whether we would be ready to do what is right even if it seems contrary to the public belief.

Signing off for now,
Jai Hind

Back into Action......

The longest delay b/w posts ends today. Throwing off the laziness that has surrounded me, I hereby resume my blogging activities from today. Blah-blah-blah.. Had so many things to post about the last 2/3 months but I won't go into that. It has bogged me down till now, no more. The main aim behind this post today is to document the fact that I saw another of my seniors in Technopark.

About the day so far, nothing much expect that I am growing lazier as the days go by. Haven't yet transferred my this month's budget into my running account. Hoping to do that tomorow early morning. Got up late around 9, slept for another hour or so. Had a late breakfast and got ready for office. Reached office, did some catching up with yesterday's mail and stuff and before I knew, it was time for lunch. Went out with one of my team-mates, Angel. The place was actually a house where lunch is also served much like the Marakada b4 our college. Filled up my stomach to the max, so much that I couldn't stand straight. Came back to office, did some testing, prepared a few testcases and as time flew, it was time for the next break.

We usually have tea from the Food Court on the 7th floor. The whole team is around during those times, i.e the 5 of us. Arun chettan's missing in action bcoz of his reccent nose surgery. Poor guy, can't even breathe properly at present and so he's on leave for now. Anyways, we bought tea and Kappa for snacks. It's usually biscuits but today, I was still feeling damn hungry. Had a gr8 time there, eating, talking, making fun of each other and last, but not the least, looking at the beauties surrounding us. Frankly, the best of Trivandrum can be found, at Technopark or specifically, in the FoodCourt at lunch and snacks time. After a wonderful half an hour, we all came back to the office. Next in line was the remaining work to be done. Given the low amount of work for the last few days, it was child's play and then back to Kathis in office. How work and fun goes hand in hand can be learn't 1st hand at Qburst. Man, the culture here's just amazing. Frankly, the 1st place any newbie should work is QBurst, the pay may be a bit low at first but the learning curve's great.

Moving on to next phase, Dinner time. Usually I get out by 9:30 and it's hectic work till then. But today, given the low stress, I made my way to Bhavani, the opp. building for dinner. Chicken Noodles was the only thing left and amazingly, my stomach got filled with that. Came back home in company cab, and on the way to home, I was almost sure that today there would be a post no matte how late it gets. Well the post is almost over and the main info is still missing. :)

This happened while I was coming back from Bhavani to my office. After having the delicious dinner, me and Arun chettan, this is another Arun, G for prosterity sake, were coming back in the lift. From the floor below the canteen, a few girls got in, Infy I think. I didn't see any special beauty in between them until another one got in. At first, I wasn't sure whether it was her, and given my nature, I would stay mum rather ask her. But then, I knew it had to be her Linda Mary Joshep Stanley, I hope the name's in correct order, for the resemblance was far too much for her to be someone else. At that perfect instance, my tongue got stuck and I couldn't gather courage to ask whether it was her. Can't believe that I can't change for the better.

Anyway's she got out at bottom floor, came out of the building, turned left and I turned right. End of story for now.

Signing off for now...
Adios....

Re-Union of sorts

Creativity jumps at you from the wrong places. Long time since I last blogged and it seems pretty tiresome to blog after a hard day at work. So here at the beginning of this new week, I'm back to blog. Recalling stuffs hasn't been my forte and so this may seem like an abridged version of events. Last week, I had a small trip to Kannur. How to classify the trip would be a near to impossible thing, as it was almost a re-union, a marriage visit, an excursion, a sleepover and what not. So begins this account of my latest foray to the Malabar side.

We had this trip planned a long time back, mostly banking on the fact that Monday,the actual marriage day, would be a holiday for most of us. Yet as the date came close, most of us couldn't get our leave sorted out. So it forced us to pre-pone the trip by a day or two. Friday night was settled as a beginning of the journey. As usual, I was late to reach the station and thanx to Jazz, the guy's a gem in case of trouble, I reached just in time. Ghosh was already there in the train waiting for me. The fact of the situation was that only two of us were making the trip that day, or literally night. Anyways after a fairly uneventful journey, we reached Kozhikode in the morning, late by an hour or so. There was an intended meeting of the Infy girls and us at Kozhikode at 6 in the morning, Saturday. But thanks to great Indian Snake that didn't happen. So we went straight to Thampi's house. BTW, we had some friends of Ghosh to guide us the way, friends he made on the train. So we reached Thampi's dwelling but not before a long walk thanx to our eagerness to get down before the actual stop.

A break in the real world, went to make coffee to stay up long. It's around 1:30 in morning.

Anyways, after a morning jog and a freshning up at Thumps' place, we left for Kozhikode stand, the meeting place. We met Lekshmi, our bhujji, who's currently in NIT,Calicut doing her Master's. Makes me think on Vaarnum Aayirum every time I think of girls doing Master's away from home. Coming back to point, she wasn't gonna come with us 'coz some report stuff had come up. So we six, Thampi, Ghosh, Me, Prinku, Manjaly and Spoon, made our way to Kannur. We took the bus, instead of the train, for that section of journey. Experience is the greatest teacher and so we now know that train is the best way to Kannur. Anyways, having journeyed continuously for 4&1/2 hours, we reached Payyanur. From there, Soumya, the would-be bride, picked us up. Got a small treat from her for being so late. We promised to be there by 1 and we landed there around 4, i think. We ordered drinks for all, strictly non-alcoholic :). After that, straight to her home. It would be better to say we swam through currents, fought the tempest, vanquished the fire and rode through deserts to make it to our fountain of youth. Finally we reach her place. What a place that was, mind-blowing. Pure heaven on earth, I'm exaggerating but close. It was lush greenery around, a few miles and you could step into Karnataka and a jog the other way would take you to Kasargod. Kidding guys, but far from the hustle-bustle of city, this was like heaven. The place was teeming with life. People all round, getting ready for an important day that was soon to be on them. Got a warm welcome there, made us forget how tired we were and then the gift session. I seem to be in a hurry to finish this account, and why not, given that I have been sitting with this for the last 2 hours. We had a great lunch at 4:30 in evening, fried rice and Kerala Chicken curry, made me look a steam-engine with smoke through my eyes and ears :). It was simply too good to be true, the people, the food and the atmosphere. Makes me yearn for another trip back.

Next on cards was our trip to the fields and the streams nearby. Thanks to Ghosh's curiosity, we, atleast some of us, got a first-hand experience of pisi-therapy. Some photo-session and then back to Soumya's place. From there, a straight journey to Kozhikode via Payyanur. Reached there late @ 10pm. Got a treat from Prinku as it was her birthday. Then after some shopping, the girls made it Prinku's home for the night. They had to catch the 1am bus to Mysore. After goodbying then, we left for Thampi's place. A good night sleep after a heavy-duty dinner.

The next day, we reached Kozhikode station for return. So we got tickets for Mangalore express which was supposed to reach there by 10:25. But then when does Indian Railway come on time. So it was supposed arrive at 12:10, with plenty of time left we planned to visit famed Kozhikode beach. Called Prinku too for company. Had a jolly good time. Then a palmistry session for Ghosh and Thampi. After that we came back to station. But then, the train was late by another hour. So we sat at the station till 1 in the afternoon. Finally the train pulled in and after waving Prinku goodbye, we left for Trivandrum.

As if the train wasn't late already, there were stops almost every half an hour to allow other trains to pass. By the time we reached TVM, we were dead tired and ready to fall asleep. In between, Ghosh discovered the joy sitting on the foot-board of the train. It was a glorious sight to behold, sitting with ur chums, looking into the setting sun and passing greens. It was almost 12 when we finally landed in TVM. From there to Kanimangalam and heavenly bliss in form sleep.

That's it for now, almost 3:45 in morning..
Signing off for now,
Adios...

Life isn't fair. So why should you be ??

This isn't a jot down why you shouldn't or why you should. Just a thought pattern hanging in between the two extremes. At times, I wonder how can any human being's heart be so cold and frosty. It isn't that I haven't been so myself but even then, most melt before reason or emotion. A bit of humanity, a small amount of suffering for the fellow being is all that it takes. Yet most of us so easily take the easy way out. When will we understand that it can be Win-Win world rather than a Win-Lose world ? Until then, the question remains like a Pandora's Box. You open it and misery comes out. An introspection into our daily lives will show how much fair we have been to others. The extra bit of work passed onto your friend or colleague, that extra piece of cake that you took from the plate, the best seat that you took while traveling on the bus or even the wee bit of time that you overspent before your friend's laptop/PC.

These are some of the incidents that I could remember, there are many more. It seems so good to have tasted that victory but at the cost of what ? You may say it's a dog-eat-dog world out there, but are we not a part of it ? Can't you be the change that you would love to see in others ? Every drop of water is needed to fill the ocean and so every good thing that you do may inspire someone else do so too. A small sacrifice that may hurt initially but will bring peace to your heart. It's easier sleeping with a peaceful heart than a victorious one.

Signing off for now,
Adios